The Voice Inside

Finding my voice:

At the beginning of this year I set out to accomplish the lofty goal of writing a book.  It’s a lofty goal for several reasons: for starters I have a toddler, I also work part time and I am the wife of a pastor.

But nevertheless, I pushed on and now, three months later, I have my manuscript. Countless hours have been poured into this goal.  With the help of my husband I was able to set aside time each week to put all my focus towards this one thing: writing.

In the process something amazing happened – I rediscovered my voice.

You see, somewhere along the way, in the busyness of life I had forgotten about my voice.

Let’s rewind… There was a point when I didn’t yet have my voice.

I was a troubled teenager. Just before my 16th birthday I found out I was pregnant. I chose to give the baby up for adoption (my choice) but afterwards fell into a steady habit of destructive behavior. I didn’t know how to put a voice to the anger, pain and sadness that existed inside of me. This changed when I learned how to speak about it. Soon my voice grew powerful. But then life happened.

I met this English guy with a hot accent, married him and moved to London.  I immediately fell pregnant.  So many drastic changes … all within a year’s time.  Thus I began to put my voice on the back burner.

Sure, there were times when I wanted to speak up.  But somehow I’d manage to talk myself out of it.  It started small, ‘my thoughts won’t really make much a difference in this situation,’ but soon grew – ‘keep your mouth shut or people will start to think you’re craving attention.  

Something needed to shift.  So when the idea to write Placing Bets came, I was determined to make it a reality.  One thing that really helped me is Jeff Goins’ book You are a Writer (So Start Acting Like One).  If you hurry you can catch it for free before the end of 1 April by clicking here.

Writing this book has been a gift to me.  It’s helped me remember where I came from.  I never want to forget the struggle of going through those hardships, otherwise I might take this current happiness for granted.  It’s also reminded me how far I’ve come.

I’ve got a story that needs to be shared.  I’m willing to bet you do too.  Have you found your voice to share it?


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